Thursday, July 8, 2010

What is there to say?

I haven't posted since April. Wow. A huge reflection on the fact that not much has happened on the adoption front lately. I just have nothing to say, really. Our file has been in Ethiopia for 22 months now and we're in the process of updating all of the paperwork (fun). I wish I could say to all the people we are having to pay (again) to update our paperwork to just charge it to one blonde thief who stole all our money (not that I'm still bitter or anything).
I have wavered over the past few months about our adoption. It is hard to be excited when nothing is happening (even with the referral this week...I'm still guarded). I've even questioned whether it is best to go back on the list for another domestic adoption (which we decided is not for us right now). Like I've said before I really want to move on with life and have my family complete. I'm really done with all of this. Once we have a referral I know I'll be excited and joyful again.
On another note, Josina is already 16 months old! She's such a joy and I am amazed at how she changes on a daily basis! She is signing to communicate but seems to be a late-talker. This doesn't worry be right now b/c there is a family history of late-talkers (at 2 years).

I hope that you are all doing well. I still read the blogs on a daily basis but just haven't been motivated to write. Ttfn.

P.S. Here are some recent pics of Josina. If we are friends on facebook you've already seen them.


Katie said...

I completely understand your lack of enthusiasm for this process. The closer we get to being able to come "off hold" with our Imagine file, the less excited I feel because not only do we have to update everything because of Owen's adoption, but I can almost guarantee our documents will go stale AGAIN and need updating AGAIN before we receive a referral. I can't even fathom how much longer this process is going to take...

Waiting is hard. But hang in there, and keep blogging! I really enjoy your updates on Josina and seeing what exciting milestones we can expect... :)

Natalie and Chris said...

Weclome back. I was just checking your blog last night to see if I missed something and it's been a while.
First off, thanks for the wonderful comments on my blog, it's so nice to have your support and I completely understand about not droping in this past weekend, but next time, please do you are always invite needed.
I completely understand what you are going through emotionally with the adoption. I often felt that it would be easier if they would have told me it was done and I had to find some other way than having to make the decision. I commend you for staying loyal to your Ethiopian adoption, I know it's the hardest thing and one referral every few months doesn't help matters. I'm still here if you ever need anything. I think of you every time I look at the beautiful frame you sent me. I can't wait to fill it with a pic of our new son.
Nat xox

Tammy said...

Thanks Katie and Natalie, your support and understanding mean so much! It sure isn't an easy road, is it?
Natalie, I know you have a name but aren't ready to share. When you do let me know and I'll make a new page to put in the frame for you. :)

Derrick, Alysia, and Levi said...

Wow, Josina has sure grown since I last saw pictures! What a cutie! I remember when you announced your wonderful surprise of Josina and it really doesn't seem THAT long ago. 16 months. Wow! It's hard to believe that Levi will grow that fast too. I don't want to rush it. I'm trying to just enjoy every minute at each stage. But it is going fast already. Anyway, she sure is cute and I hope that soon you will get some good news of her little sibling.