I wouldn't change a thing.

I love this experience.  There are so many emotions that go with this step of our journey.  I am excited, exhausted and anxious, just to name a few.  Sid and I are seperately working on checking things off his travel list. For example, get U.S. money, buy cell phone to use in Africa, make sure we have our notarized document for court, the paperwork and money order for baby's sister's visa, phone number for our agency's driver in Addis, etc., etc.   Our list is 2 pages long.  I am taking it all in.  Preparing for his trip, collecting donations and the like all the while trying to live life and keep up on the daily tasks, including laundry (could do without that!), being a mom to a 2 year-old and gardening.  Periodically I calculate what Sid will be doing a week from now (for example in one week he have already held our daughter in his arms!) and I smile. At the same time I get nauseous with anxiety about court.  But I wouldn't change a thing.  This is all about becoming a family.  Our daughter will soon join our family and I wouldn't change a thing.  The nerves, exhaustion and anxiety are all a part of it and I'm taking it all in.